Successful Struggle

I've been successful with my food for the last day and half, but it has been a huge struggle. Like right now, I just finished lunch. I ate leftover turkey breast with lettuce on a wheat round and a side of leftover roasted squash. Note to self roast squash isn't as good the second day. Now I am having a battle with my mind. I know that I am satisfied physically with the food I ate, but my brain is scream just a few more carbs or something sweet. It's so bad at this moment that I am going to have the girls take a early nap so I can just sleep through my cravings.

My goal is to not sleep all the time because I can't - it's not realistic at all, but this week, today, it's what will help me be successful.

Last night I made dinner for me and decided that that was what the little girls would eat as well.

I got a roasted turkey breast from HEB which I paired with roasted squash and a new Suddenly Salad called Tuscan Grain. I hear you on the processed foods, but again I have to make some sacrifices to get through my first weeks without binge-ing.

I think it's one of the better "processed" foods. I mean there is brown rice, quinoa, and wheat berries in there. It was good and as you can see I measured the exact amount I could eat.

Bekah was not impressed with any of it, so she had blueberries. Morgan, on the other hand, loves roasted squash and pretty much cleaned her plate.

I wouldn't have been able to make it through yesterday without these two lifesavers.

 I picked them up on a whim will doing my weekly shopping, they were not cheap, but have help me to have a healthy alternative to my sweets craving. The CandyCot is so sweet that Matt can't even eat them.

So, things aren't terrible, but my body or shall I say my brain is talking to me and it's a pretty big struggle to not eat things I shouldn't .

This morning I made the girls biscuits and I knew I'd be craving them all day if I didn't have one. So, this was my breakfast.

I know I could have eaten a large quantity of something else, but I'm really trying to find what works for me.

What is it Going to Take?

Ever ask yourself that? I did yesterday.

JAG and I felt like crap all weekend. Why you ask…our bodies are telling us “Enough with the crap you have been putting in me. I am going to rebel and see if you get the hint.” I feel like poo!

So what is going to take?  What will get me back on track? What do I need to do to realize this weight isn’t just going to drop off of me especially standing in line at a Pizza Buffet?

If you stumbled upon my blog today, I am sorry. I have no tips or advice for you today. I am lost. I have fallen of the wagon, rolled to the side of the road and cried because the wagon is five miles up the road and I have no clue how to get back on it.

JAG and I have found the good and the bad sides of losing weight together. When we are motivated we are AWESOME together, but when one of us falls off we grab the other and drag him or her to nearest deep fried eatery. We love food, we love each other and we love food. So we love to eat food together. Big downfall.

It kind of feels like two addicts, I want him to do well and I want to do well, but it harder then anything to get both of us back on the wagon lately. We are done justifying…that is a good thing, but at the same time we are in the “oh who cares” mood about our weight and that is not good at all. I need to do better to help him and he needs to do better to help me.

I have got to get motivated! I actually let Shelby take this picture of me and at the time I thought, “eh I am ok with myself like this…I don’t need to lose weight.” Then I got sick that afternoon from overeating pizza. That and trying on my now tailored wedding dress has led me to this post.

Hello, my name is StrawberryTart and I am a food addict. First step, right?